The thing about Faye

My mother was so amazing! And I'm not just saying that cause she was my momma. It's 4 am and all I can think about is how I hope to be like her. Although she is forever in my heart, lord knows I wish I could hold her hand one more time or pinch her cheeks. How I wish I could give her everything she ever desired because she did so for me, she did so for everyone. Her gift of song, to unite, to laugh in the darkest hour. Never met anyone else like this lovely lady. And I'm so happy I was hers and she was mine. My heart. I wish I had her strength and her ability to take on the world head on. It was a very difficult time for me toward her transition from this world. Even toward the end she still answered the phone with "It's a beautiful day!", she still entered a room with grace, humor, and inspiration. She still stood on her feet working to make sure we had something. We knew we could beat cancer for a third time! She was given 3 months and I swear it's because of her genuineness, love for all and positive attitude that kept her here for three more years. I never knew how serious it was until I got back home. She never wanted to stop me or my dreams. Some days I wish she did. I miss my momma everyday, and I wish she were still here to wrap me in her arms and make me feel home again. It's been a long time since I felt like that.

Fence

Lens

Drunk feelings!

I don't know how to be strong anymore. You know I can understand why so many turn to substance abuse now. Life is a bitch, even when you try to do right by people. Life will throw you to the ground and stomp your face out. If you haven't realized by now I'm pissed! Do any of you ever ask yourself. How the fuck did I get here? No seriously! For those of us who have been raised right, know how to treat others, live life as accordingly as possible, try our damnedest to do everything right! Just so we can have it all thrown back in our face. Now I know why people are bitter and angry at the world! These were once people who believed in it! In life, in connection, in experience, in love, in compassion, in respect! Something is incredibly wrong. The fucked upness of this world and ragedy as people is causing a shortage in those who truly believe in it and want better for it. What the hell MAN!!!!!!!!!

Lesson Learned

Tonight I learned a valuable lesson about the words we use when speaking to others. Based on my experience tonight I encourage us all to think about the words we choose. You never know who's feelings we will hurt. Who's life we will affect. We never know what another person is going through . There is a time and place for everything. To anyone who's ever been affected by my words or actions negatively, I am so sorry.

Codema

Gan Shmuel

Did you see the moon?

DAY 3